| She burns like the sun.... |
[Nov. 8th, 2006|12:23 am] |
Its strange looking back on life, what stayed the same, what's different. What did I care so much about then? What's different about that? I'm in a different seeting, different people, different routines. And some of those suck. But its strange, how it can suck, but when I talk to her it can feel so good. Its been happening for two days. I ve been talking to her for TWO DAYS! I'm never ready for these things. They always catch me off guard. I haven't been able to find what I want from a relationship. I haven't been able to reflect fully, or that's what I keep telling myself....Maybe I'm just trying to put it off.
I hate my emotions.
I need to do something about it. I'm not going to do nothing, I need to be proactive. I need to get more reactions, see what's happening. I always need to analyze, I don't want to mess up. I need to do that in many instances. I think thats why I'll write this again. Get my head straight. Geez, I'm writing this like a real journal entry...how cliche.
You know, I wonder how many people will read this when I post it. |
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| The answer is.....42 |
[Apr. 19th, 2006|08:38 pm] |
SPRING BREAK!! halfway over though, its been quite good so far though. Whoever reads this probably knows already, but just to see it typed, I'm going to UMass Amherst next year for college. My plan is to try out both the acting and composition programs, but I'll most likely settle on composition, or I might design a Film Scoring major. I know, crazy.
I also got the awesome Incredibles soundtrack, composed by the awesome Michael Giacchino (music for Lost, Medal of Honor, Sky High). For all you music geeks out there, it is a reccommended buy.
So yeah, life's good, etc. I shall leave you with a survey to bide my time.
10 Favorites...
Favorite Color: Blue nad/or green
Favorite Food: pineapples!
Favorite Band: ummmmm.....Foo fighters/Dave Matthews Band
Favorite Movie: Harvey, Hudson Hawk, Hitchhiker's Guide, The Producers
Favorite Sport: MAarching band!
Favorite Season: spring, i think
Favorite Day Of the Week: everyday
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: cherry!
Favorite Time of Day: allday
9 Currents...
Current Mood: calm
Current Taste: saliva
Current Clothes: Blue man group t-shirt (which I think I got to be on stage at a performance, woot!)
Current Desktop Picture: N'awlins
Current Toenail Color: toenail
Current Time: 8:46 PM
Current Surroundings: dining room
Current Annoyance(s): the fact that Garageband doesn't have Timpani
Current Thought: i want to be a.....movie scorer
8 Firsts...
First Best Friend: Christine
First Kiss: molly
First Screen Name: darkmatter900
First Pet: isis, my wonderful black cat
First Piercing: none
First Crush: ummm, either danielle or jess
First Music: The now series
First Car: hahaha, cars?
7 Lasts.....
Last Cigarette: smoking is for europeans and white trash
Last Drink: lemonade
Last Car Ride: home from helping grandparents move into trumbull
Last Kiss: hahahaha, dawn in Jan.
Last Movie Seen: umm, The Incredibles (such a geek)
Last Phone call: either ryan or cricket
Last CD Played: Absolution :Muse
6 Have You Evers....
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: nope
Have You Ever Broken the Law: probably
Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: nope
Have You Ever Been on TV: yeah
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: nope
5 Things....
Things You're Wearing: underwear under my wears, no socks, a shirt, kahkis, and my hair
Things You Did Last Night: played N64, old school, watched Fullmetal Alchemist, online, tried to sleep, slept
Things You Can Hear Right Now: Amazing race, my music, my typing, a cow jumping over the moon....and silence under that
Things You Can't Live Without: music, music, music, music, acting, acting, and food
Things You Do When Your bored: sit and think of something better to do
4 Places You've Been To...
1. Canada
2. Boston
3. Grand Canyon
4. Florida
3 People You Can Tell Anything To...
~ Regan
~ Dawn
~ myself
2 Choices...
1. Black or White: white
2. Hot or Cold: warm
1 Wish.....
that we could all just get along! and to find out the question to life, the universe, and everything. |
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| You Never Know |
[Mar. 27th, 2006|10:53 pm] |
New spiffy layout
Word of the month: spiffy
Going to freakin BOSTON thursday!
Done. |
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| Won't you stay |
[Mar. 19th, 2006|09:27 pm] |
I just realized.....all but one of my friends here are girls...haha....wonder what that says about me.
Eh. Which reminds me I'm in another confused state concerning girls again. I guess I'm in my defensive mode. I don't feel like getting hurt again, and I say no one catches me off the rebound....haha. (by the way this entry is me putting off essay writing)....
OMG! Everyone should see V for Vendetta! Because I said so! yes, you people trust me enough as a movie goer to recognize a good movie.
Anyways...girls....you are all confusing, as we are to you. I say you always put me in a spin. Let's just say there's a reason most all of my songs are about girls. mhmmm.
Yeah. I'll leave it at that before I say something tooo revealing...okay.
PEACE! |
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| Crush |
[Mar. 16th, 2006|09:37 pm] |
EVERYTHING IS OKAY NOW! though I feel bi-polar for being so moody (no offense to those bipolar people)
its still a trasition point in my life so I'll be like that sometimes. All I need is for some people to talk to. ummmmm, yeah.
I'm going to record songs tomorrow. (FINALLY) Hopefully I'll be able to continue on my endeavor and produce a demo or something.
Thats all for now, PEACE! |
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| I was just wondering if you'd come along |
[Mar. 15th, 2006|09:07 pm] |
Bleh. Life has become really boring for some reason...
Maybe it's because I really dislike my part in the musical. Probably because I'm anxiously waiting to hear from my #1 college and there's been so much trouble about it. Also because I'm sinlge, and I have this empty space in my heart that I try to ignore. Girls....
It's really annoying, I'd really like to have someone to cuddle with, someone to kiss, but I beleive in long relationships. I'm not going to start a new one, I'm starting somewhere else in three months, and that wasn't enough basis to hold my last one together.
I'm at a point in my life where I'm waiting for things to happen.....and I wan't to do something about it. I wanted to deliver my transcript personally to Ithaca. (They didn't get my transcipt, they have it now) And I really miss having a girlfriend.....sigh. It feels like this hole is bigger than the first, and this one lasted half the time... |
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| February Stars |
[Feb. 26th, 2006|09:29 pm] |
So. I went to the audition and he listened to my piece. He said that I have the attitude, and that the puece was evocative. I was "in the mix" I don't stand out completely, but I don't suck. He said it depended on the competition that day. there were about 11 people, and 5 out of us will be chosen. I NEED TO SEE THE RESULTS!!! I'm so anxious to see them. I want to know if I'm accepted.
So, other than that....I need a life now. Maybe I'll start a new song or something. We shall see. |
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| All You Need Is Love |
[Feb. 22nd, 2006|10:18 pm] |
IF YOU GUYS LOVE ME, PRAY FOR ME TO DO WELL ON THE ITHACA AUDITION SATURDAY!
It means so much to me, I just wrote down 101 measures onto 11 pagees in 6 hours. I'm auditioning for composition. WISH ME LUCK! |
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| Lonely as you |
[Feb. 21st, 2006|10:13 pm] |
Just so you guys know, i haven't posted in a while, but my girlfreind and I broke up.
She moved to Florida and we couldn't handle the long distance.
I'm okay.. as far as okay goes. L:EAVE SOME LOVE!!!
~Kyle |
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